Dearest
Hannah
Day 31 of
writing to you and today is just another day now of what I hope will be
hundreds of letters to you.
I don’t feel
like today is a letter that is full of joy and happiness. We both have had days
where we have struggled in one way or another.
I could sit
here and mention all that has been going on but let’s be honest, I have
mentioned both parts of what has been going on for the last two letters and I don’t
want to be repetitive and constantly writing in the negative.
It is hard
though.
We both need
just the presence of each other. Not to really do more than have the other one
near. We are both more than capable to do the things that we are doing despite
the hard aspect but it would be more of a comfort that you have your person by
your side.
Instead of
listing it all I do want to be a little more positive.
You are an
amazingly strong mum. You do so much for your children and with that try to
give them so many good opportunities or positive reinforcements that are for
rewards as well as treat that are not related to the discipline or things
withdrawn but the parenting battle endures.
I see so much
good and I wouldn’t want you in the role of mum for my boys if I didn’t think
so. My boys adore you and are always talking about you; that wouldn’t happen if
they didn’t like you. The fact that you are Hanny says it all. For them, they
need stability and wouldn’t make the choice to call you a combination of Hannah
and Mummy if you didn’t deserve that role!
You are wonderful
and caring as a partner and you try so hard with me and I love you for that.
You understand
me in the moments when most people wouldn’t and you can actually see the side
of me that I believe is there that many seem to miss.
You make
loving you so easy because of the way you love me.
It is only 5
more sleeps until we are together again and at this very moment in time it can’t
come soon enough. I have no care now if it is my birthday or not. All I want is
to be with the woman that I love, the woman who I want to spend the rest of my
life with and the woman who is my person!
Love you,
Martyn
