Dearest
Hannah,
Day
25 of writing to you and it is getting closer to us seeing each other again.
Today
has been another low contact day. You were sorting the kids out who are still
poorly and it looks like A was bitten by fleas when they stayed at their dads
so he was playing up a bit this morning. I went to church as normal.
I
think we missed spaces in there though so I thought you were being picked up at
the same time so didn’t check my phone thinking you wouldn’t have had time when
you may have done.
This
afternoon you went to your Grans with your mum and the kids for lunch and I met
with my birth sister.
It
is now early evening and I am home and it has hit me how we haven’t spoken
much.
I
am starting to wonder if this is just a few busy days and that we have just
missed the opportunity to chat or if this is the way it is going to be now. You
either working or catching up with friends and family and me finding things to
entertain myself or booking to see people and focus on other things so I don’t get
left waiting and missing you too much; either way I am unsure if this is random
and coincidental or something that I have to get used to. I suppose only time
will tell.
Church
went well; not many people attended it today but the talk was good and I think
relevant to the both of us. It was a reminder that Jesus and God are the
authority of things and that law, the Pharisees and people are restrictions to
life and Holiness is the only way to be freed and followed.
Meeting
my birth sister was really nice. We chatted for a little bit and I met her
parents who were lovely, respectful and engaging. The boys, for the most part,
were well behaved and polite. James lost focus after a little bit and started
being himself but that was after an hour so I couldn’t be too cross. They also
paid for dinner which was kind and unexpected. I think the whole time was great
and everything was enjoyed by all. We chatted about life, childhood, likes and
dislikes and what life is like now.
I
am, of course, home now and we are doing the bedtime routine.
I
have no idea at all how your day has gone.
How
are the kids? I hope they are feeling better! How was dinner at your Grans? Any
problems this time? Was dinner nice? How are you feeling? How is your back now?
Did the ex’s family drop off A’s blanket?
Tonight
you are speaking to your friend Kat so we won’t be doing our Bake Off show
catch up again. You have said that you are hoping you can call Kat at 8pm but
depending on kids sleeping and that you probably will speak for an hour. I do
think this is a positive underestimation. Knowing how things go I don’t really
see that you will be done until 8.30pm and then you will probably sort a drink
and something for your back. So, if working on that logic then you will
probably call me after 9.30 ish. I know though that she has problems with her
kids sleeping so that may vary. I do think that you will be closer to 10pm to
call me but we will see.
I
am tired so I know this will impact our chat time. Again, and just like the above,
it is something out of the blue that can’t be helped so I don’t mind. I will
miss the opportunity to find out all of the above and to chat to you properly
like we thought we could but I will look forward to just hearing your voice and
finding out as much as possible in the small time we have.
I
love you so much and miss you loads too; even more so today. These few days
have been hard for me knowing that we haven’t spoken a lot but this is the life
of a long distance relationship I suppose. At least I know in the future it
will be easier as you will be coming home to me.
I
hope everything goes well for bedtime and with the call to Kat. 11 sleeps.
Love you,
Martyn
