Dearest
Hannah,
Day 12 and
the best part of today’s letter is the striking contrast to some of the previous
ones!
Another
eventful 24 hours!
Yesterday I
felt like the post was a bit doom and gloom despite looking for the positive
and turning it into a happy ending. Today has been amazing for many reasons.
This morning
you woke me up as you knew I was keen on getting up early for a technician to
turn up and you knew that my silence meant one thing; I had slept through my
alarms and was still asleep. I love you so much for this! You knew what had
happened and did what you could to make sure I wasn’t left in a pending
horrible situation of the boys waking me up by letting the guy in!
Later in the
day, although I worried about it at the time for going wrong, I caught myself
in what was a unhealthy situation and took myself off to do something positive.
I knew you were out and busy and the situation wasn’t perfect and that I was
caught in a waiting scenario. Instead, I love that I realised it and took
appropriate action and did something good with my time and that you were
pleased that I did so. Just made, and still does make, me happy that I took the
lesson from yesterday forward and tried to be more productive. It might not
have worked swimmingly but it was still good that I did so and you were happy with
me for doing it.
We then spoke
on the phone for a while and a few lovely things happened. We spoke about past
blogging situations with your previous blog and how you have grown up, changed
and respect me enough not to do that again. Ultimately, what seemed a fleeting conversation
about another ex-blogger lead to this; but it was so easy and flowing that
neither of us knew the future impact that it would have.
You also
realised that my impending visit this week coincided with our 6 month
anniversary. I know it was a surprise with how quickly things had flown by that you
hadn’t clicked but it was lovely going through it with you and then us both
being excited that we were seeing each other, on a special date, in 3 sleeps
time!
Then the most
amazing thing happened to you. You had a Godly experience.
I am so
pleased for you! God is so good and can do all things and such beautifully
amazing blessings.
You,
randomly, had stopped your subscription on Google Play and meant that you had
to reorganise your playlists. At the time I said it was a good thing and
allowed you to choose songs that you like and are feeling more rather than
being stuck with the same old ones. I know how much you enjoy organising
things!
In
doing so you placed a Casting Crowns song on and started playing, listening and
singing and felt lead to the kitchen. Following that you opened your hands up and
out and just sang. Then God, who was clearly in all things, came to you.
Isn’t
weird that we, only a few nights ago, spoke about you letting go of what had
happened and I said I felt that God would help when you felt comfortable that
you had changed and were in a committed relationship? Isn’t it weird that only
recently I had spoken about putting your hands out for God because it was part
of letting go of things and receiving a gift? Isn’t it weird that I had said
that my more powerful moments are when I use a song as a prayer for Him? Or, isn’t
it weird that we had, unknowingly, a conversation where you declared all of
those things?
I
know the answer is both yes and no. I don’t think either you or I thought this
was going to happen and yet, I know God, what He and the Spirit can do and how
it works so I shouldn't be surprised.
I
love that you have opened yourself to God and to the Holy Spirit to bless and
cover you.
That
one action of doing that and just doing so freely, without feeling forced, was a
truly humble moment I think between you and God. You opened up and He took
action.
He
literally took action in the run up of all the things that have happened and
been said and used that wonder to allow you, when you chose it, to make that step and make it the right
time. I am often told about the fact that Jesus and God are always knocking at
our door and it just takes our action of opening that door for them to make a change. I
know what that feeling feels like; I know how powerful God's blessings and
presence feels like. It is the most wonderful and almost indescribable moment.
I
also know how much that means to you.
I
have always said and thought that God is with us and in the relationship. He
works in ways that flow through two people and especially with those, like us, who
allow Him to become that third thread and cord. All of the coincidences between
us over this little time was building up and obviously resulted in something
truly blessing. Just imagine what there is to come.
I
am about to take the boys back but I just wanted to say how much that I love
you. It is a blessing and a happiness to write today’s letter and to do so
knowing that we have had an amazing 24 hours.
You
are my God’s gift and He is with us. What can stop our future with Him on our
side.
Love you,
Martyn