We have
managed to reach day four of our letters and I still feel like this is
something wonderful. It gives me time in the day to solely focus my day on just
you and you alone. For you, I know it is a beautiful piece set apart in your
day to look forward to.
Today has been a weird one. We haven’t spoken much but it has also been because we both have stuff going on.
I went to
church this morning with Will. It was another baptism and you know how I am
with those anyway.
The service
itself was, as this week has shown, very poignant. It was talking about the
fact that everyone is different. It doesn’t matter where they came from or what
they are like but we should cherish the difference in them and try and find a
way to connect, relate and work together. The talk was based upon a story of
two brothers and a carpenter. (I have linked it there in case you want to see
it) It got me thinking about us and this week. I know I have had moments this
week where I have felt so different in the way I do things. It made me feel
isolated because I couldn’t be like everyone else.
The thing is
that at the beginning of the story there was a simple misunderstanding which
grew and tore the brothers apart. It was something that we were trying to work
through ourselves; how often did we discuss that distance can make or break us?
All from something that could be easily misunderstood. Yet, it made me smile
because of the bridge; you help create a bridge for me and the rest of the world
by helping understand the different aspects I don’t get. You also are the
bridge for me in making me feel less different by actually understanding me and
seeing where I am coming from, especially within some simple misunderstandings!
Finally, it made me feel that God is a bridge for both of us in our situation. We
have been speaking about how we both feel that God is in our relationship and working
for our better future and how, since dating me, that your faith has been kick
started again. Knowing that, despite some misunderstandings that we may have
because of distance and technology, we have that connection with God’s
blessing.
We also haven’t
spoken much because we both have been out with friends. I went to go see mine
after church and you went for dinner. Finally, you haven’t been feeling too
well and we think you might be fighting a virus so you have been sleeping more.
The latter
point I find both hard and sad. It is moments like this where I wish I was with
you to help with the kids, to clean and tidy and to look after you in any way
that I can; even if that means doing the other bits so you can just sleep!
But, we do
live this long distance relationship and this problem will crop up occasionally.
The thing is
that our future is close. It may at times, like today, seem ages away but it isn’t.
We have so much to look forward to and I can’t wait to experience it all with
you; the beauty of each moment will make the time fly by. Ultimately, we will
spend the rest of our lives together, so what is 10 months in comparison?
I am a bit
late today in writing this letter but I am pleased that I have had time to
squeeze it in between the busy day we have had, putting the kids to bed and our
evening phone call.
I love how
different elements have grown within our relationship. I know we always had a
place for each other and calling to chat at the end of the day but I love that
we now watch a programme together whilst being on the phone. I’m sure this won’t
happen every night, like it hasn’t this week, and other things will get in the way
and we will just chat like normal but I love knowing that we have a connection
in those moments. Last night had a priceless one when we watched Master Chef
and the woman, I still can’t remember her name as I cared that little about
her¸ was annoying us and we both said exactly the same sentence at the same
time. It made me smile and has continued to do so throughout the day.
I also love
how we do a small video chat before bed. For so long now, despite maybe not
actually going to sleep, I have made sure that you are the last person I talk
to before I go to sleep. Yet, now that we do this and I get to see your face it
makes me not want to ever sleep without knowing your face is the last I see.
What is clear
is that we have this amazing relationship that is continually growing and with
that we keep having a growing connection that we haven’t had before.
Little things
like that may only be a drop throughout the day but for me creates a massive
ripple in the greater ocean of us.
You have
literally just called so I best go before you tell me off not listening
properly (Such a nag ;) )
As always,
you are my love.
Love you,
Martyn